I had to come out to someone at work a couple of days ago. Itâ€™s something I havenâ€™t really had to do for a long time. I just live my life normally and assume everyone around me knows that Iâ€™m married to a woman and our son has two moms. I rarely think of myself and my family as being anything other than normal, just like the rest of the people I work with.
So this new young woman, Iâ€™ll call her Mrs. X, and I had developed what seemed like a tentative friendship. She would come to me with various business related questions and weâ€™d joke around a lot. Anyone who knows me even a little bit knows that I deal with most situations with a lot of humor; dry, sarcastic humor, but humor none the less. My new friend is a very touchy-feely type person, which, in general, makes me feel a little uncomfortable. I freely admit to having issues with being touched by people Iâ€™m not very close to, especially women. Most definitely straight, religious women who donâ€™t know Iâ€™m gay.
I knew that Iâ€™d have to tell Mrs. X about myself and my family. Itâ€™s not like me to avoid topics revolving around home life and Iâ€™ll never lie to anyone about my family. I discussed my concerns and fears with my friend DJ. DJ is also a very religious woman and she had no issues with me after I told her. Well, none that Iâ€™ve ever been aware of anyway. She gave me encouragement and support when I told her about my need to â€œoutâ€ myself to Mrs. X.
Well, itâ€™s been a two days now and Iâ€™ve not had a single visit from Mrs. X. She stopped at the first cubicle in my row this morning but didnâ€™t come to say â€œgood morningâ€ like she normally would have. Iâ€™m still mildly hopeful that sheâ€™s just extremely busy and will come on by soon. DJ is hoping for the best as well, although her disappointment in Mrs. Xâ€™s response so far is obvious.
Itâ€™s not like Mrs. X and I were close friends or anything near it. What sucks is the rejection in general. I forget about being â€œdifferentâ€ 99% of the time, well maybe not that much but you know what I mean. The vast majority of my family and friends have shown me and my wife nothing but love and acceptance, regardless of their personal beliefs. To have someone snub me because of my confession is a bit disheartening.
Alrighty then, I just felt the need to vent a bit. Thanks for reading.